Friday, April 4

In A Monologue

Last night was the beginning of our Fine Arts weekend here at Millar, and the Drama Team presented a great reminder of how we are to be rooted in Christ. One component of it was a monologue given by a good friend of mine, in the role of Amy Carmichael. It left me stirred and brought face-to-face with the reality of people's deaths every day without a Saviour.

Amy Carmichael's Dream {taken from *here*}
The tom-toms thumped straight on all night and the darkness shuddered round me like a living, feeling thing. I could not go to sleep, so I lay awake and looked; and I saw, as it seemed, this:

That I stood on a grassy sward, and at my feet a precipice broke sheer down into infinite space. I looked, but saw no bottom; only cloud shapes, black and furiously coiled, and great shadow-shrouded hollows, and unfathomable depths. Back I drew, dizzy at the depth.

Then I saw forms of people moving single file along the grass. They were making for the edge. There was a woman with a baby in her arms and another little child holding on to her dress. She was on the very verge. Then I saw that she was blind. She lifted her foot for the next step . . . it trod air. She was over, and the children over with her. Oh, the cry as they went over!

Then I saw more streams of people flowing from all quarters. All were blind, stone blind; all made straight for the precipice edge. There were shrieks, as they suddenly knew themselves falling, and a tossing up of helpless arms, catching, clutching at empty air. But some went over quietly, and fell without a sound.

Then I wondered, with a wonder that was simply agony, why no one stopped them at the edge. I could not. I was glued to the ground, and I could only call; though I strained and tried, only whisper would come.

Then I saw that along the edge there were sentries set at intervals. But the intervals were too great; there were wide, unguarded gaps between. And over these gaps the people fell in their blindness, quite unwarned; and the green grass seemed blood-red to me, and the gulf yawned like the mouth of hell.

Then I saw, like a little picture of peace, a group of people under some trees with their backs turned toward the gulf. They were making daisy chains. Sometimes when a piercing shriek cut the quiet air and reached them, it disturbed them and they thought it a rather vulgar noise. And if one of their number started up and wanted to go and do something to help, then all the others would pull that one down. "Why should you get so excited about it? You must wait for a definite call to go! You haven't finished your daisy chain yet. It would be really selfish," they said, "to leave us to finish the work alone."

There was another group. It was made up of people whose great desire was to get more sentries out; but they found that very few wanted to go, and sometimes there were no sentries set for miles and miles of the edge.

Once a girl stood alone in her place, waving the people back; but her mother and other relations called and reminded her that her furlough was due; she must not break the rules. And being tired and needing a change, she had to go and rest for awhile; but no one was sent to guard her gap, and over and over the people fell, like a waterfall of souls.

Once a child caught at a tuft of grass that grew at the very brink of the gulf; it clung convulsively, and it called-but nobody seemed to hear. Then the roots of the grass gave way, and with a cry the child went over, its two little hands still holding tight to the torn-off bunch of grass. And the girl who longed to be back in her gap thought she heard the little one cry, and she sprang up and wanted to go; at which they reproved her, reminding her that no one is necessary anywhere; the gap would be well taken care of, they knew. And then they sang a hymn.

Then through the hymn came another sound like the pain of a million broken hearts wrung out in one full drop, one sob. And a horror of great darkness was upon me, for I knew what it was-the Cry of the Blood.

Then thundered a voice, the voice of the Lord. "And He said, 'What hast thou done, The voice of thy brother's blood crieth unto me from the ground.'"

The tom-toms still beat heavily, the darkness still shuddered and shivered about me; I heard the yells of the devil-dancers and weird, wild shriek of the devil-possessed just outside the gate.

What does it matter, after all? It has gone on for years; it will go on for years. Why make such a fuss about it?

God forgive us! God arouse us! Shame us out of our callousness! Shame us out of our sin!

Tuesday, April 1

Justifying By Faith Alone

It's amazing how clear hindsight is.

And as I look back on this past year, I am brought to my knees in awe of what my God has done to someone like me.

It's been a hard year. Full of growth and joy, learning how not to depend upon myself.

Last year I was confronted with my huge problem of pride and at that point in time, it shattered me. All that I knew of myself was pulled out from under me and I started to re-build who I was as a new creation in Christ. Of course, it really was Him doing the building.

And I think that I've shared on here, my journey through January and realizing that I was building my faith on my own abilities and legalism.

This past semester, I've been taking Homiletics here, and both of my two sermons for the class came from the book of Galatians. Paul's message to those dwelling in Galatia was exactly the message I needed to understand.

"So Christ has truly set us free. Now make sure that you stay free, and don't get tied up again in slavery to the law. Listen! I Paul, tell you this: If you are counting on circumcision to make your right with God, then Christ will be of no benefit to you. I'll say it again: If you are trying to find favor with God by being circumcised, you must obey every regulation in the whole law of Moses. For if you are trying to make yourselves right with God by keeping the law, you have been cut off from Christ! You have fallen away from God's grace. But we who live by the Spirit eagerly wait to receive the faith the righteousness God has promised to us. For when we place our faith in Christ Jesus, there is no benefit in being circumcised or being uncircumcised What is important is faith expressing itself in love." {Galatians 5:1-6 - NLT}

And that's what I was doing: submitting myself for slavery. Trading in my wings for chains.

During my sermon, I used the illustration of Cinderella (and for you guys, just think bride of Christ, here, alright? Good)

Imagine being a slave. Working away in grimy conditions all the time. Being abused, pushed past your limits, uncared for. Think Cinderella here, people. Evil stepmother, evil stepsisters, only friends are the mice, not a fun place to be. Then, that glorious moment when the glass slipper is fitted onto your foot and your freedom is offered to you, and there is a chance to leave that place. Prince Charming and the palace await! Who in their right mind would say, “Um… Sorry Princey, but I think I’m going to keep on working in these conditions, being abused by my stepmother, sweeping out the fire pit, so that someday I’ll be able to be free, but I can’t come to the palace with you now, because I’ve got to work to earn it.” NO, today is the day of freedom! And your Prince Charming has come, and set you free! 

And it's this freedom that I have been learning. 

Although He calls me to self-discipline, He does not call me to legalism, and I had a wonderful discussion with a friend about this tonight. Legalism says that my doing this is what makes me worthy in God's eyes. Self-discipline says that I want to, and I know that either way, I am accepted.

I am justified (the guilt and punishment of sin exchanged for being seen as right in the eyes of God, all in one fell swoop) by faith alone. 

What amazing grace!