I go day by day, not realizing that He has so much more waiting
for me, feeling almost as if I’m intruding when I ask to feel His presence and
that He’ll come near when He feels like it. Other times, it feels as if I’m
chipping away at a rock wall and after a while it gets tiring so I stop and go
about my normal day until it’s time for devotions again.
It’s as if I’m so focused on my own little world that I
cease to realize that He stands before me simply wanting me to rest and come
into His presence and be.
We had a worship night the other night and as the worship
set started, I felt dead. I felt like I didn’t know whether I was going to meet
with God or not. But as the songs kept on coming, it hit me that I was the only
one keeping me from coming near Him. I needed to come with expectation and
realize that He longs to work in the lives of His children.
Sometimes I get caught up in the mundane, and my relationship
with Him becomes a task instead of the thing that the rest of my day rides on.
He is worthy. SO worthy. Of every moment, every thought, every action. It is
not a task or burden to give all of my life over to Him, rather it is a
pleasure. And I can’t do it on my own, I
need to let Him give me new eyes for every day and every situation.
He is the one who has called me to a life that may not be easy by the world's standards, and yet is easy because I do not need to doubt or worry about anything, for I am held in the hands of the ultimate Provider. He is the one who calls me to dance with Him as a daughter dances with her father. He is the one who dries my tears and hears my heart's every cry, He is the one who laughs at my joys and knows my pains. He is the one who has formed my every part, He is the one who has redeemed me from a life of overwhelming sin and brought me to a life of light.
My life is not my own, and I will not begrudge the King of
Kings every aspect of my every day, for He IS worthy.
Wow Christy, that hits home so very close to me right now. Last night we, too, had a worship night. I was also feeling rather drained and dead, but I didn´t try too hard to move from that pit of selfishness. Tiredness was my excuse. Thank you for reminding me: It was only me who kept myself from meeting with Him.
ReplyDeleteJehovah Jireh: I AM PROVIDER
He is for us, then who can be against us?
Love you lots, can't wait to see you
>3 Justine