Constant

It seem as if my whole life has been up and down lately, what with school wrapping up (only two more weeks left of actual class!!), projects coming due, and even my devos and prayer not happening like they should.

And today was my last day of touring with my highschool choir.

This day has been three years of hard work and busy schedules. I have learned so much about cooperation, working as a team, how to be my best but give Him the glory (still working on that one), discipling and speaking into other's lives, of learning how to get along with others when it's 11 at night and you really. want. them. to. stop. talking. so. you. can. go. to. sleep.

It's been incredible.

It hasn't hit me yet... but I don't think it will for awhile. Maybe not until I'm dressed up in that dress and ready to go to Banquet, or being handed my diploma, or even, my last day of classes.

I don't get emotional very often, but I wish I could. In my mind, becoming emotional imparts a certain sense of worth on something, because it has caused me to become emotional (that might only makes sense to those other reserved-emotionally introverts out there).

But a numbness sits over me as I contemplate this week and groan. There's so much to get done yet, but I want to do it WELL. To do it with the best in me. It feels as if all I'm giving is the last dredges of my work habit and schedule.

The thing is... He's constant. He never changes. One thing that I'm so excited about in the upcoming years is understanding more fully how my circumstances should never define how I act or who I depend on. Hopefully, it brings greater trust and dependence on Him.

School's almost over... but He's always the same (thank goodness!).