Being back from Camp, where I can be lazy and choose not to meet with Him, it's so easy to descend to the level of making Him an accessory, as an extra in my day, instead of the very reason that I am living this day.
Right now, wherever you are, the breath you just breathed was given to you by One who holds your very existence in His hands. The things we worry about so much in life, things like jobs, careers, marriage partners, futures, all fall away as worthless when we realize what's really important.
I think that's why I love my sunsets/sunrises so much. The very expanse of the sky painted in varying colours reminds me why I am here. Of how nothing matters except for Him. Of course, normal life comes into play, and it's harder to see Him and how He works together with everyday life.
Throughout my day, I often find myself saying, "This is what I'm going to do. What do you think?" instead of "Here's what's going on... I know that You know about it already, and this is what I'm feeling... What should I do? I need Your wisdom." I put myself into the very driver's seat that He created.
It blows my mind that He chose to create humankind, already knowing the pain that it would cause Him, but also the great reward He would have in those who chose to follow Him anyway. That kind of God, the one who created everything we see, who spoke to Moses through the burning bush, still speaks to us everyday through other people, through His word. Crazy...
We undermine God with thinking that this life is about us. Because that's what the world wants us to think. Really... we're inconsequential. Rather, God chose us to be the messengers of His word. He could have just done it Himself, but by doing it through us, He's also refining us and teaching us more about Himself.
So often, I block that stream that longs to pour through me with my own worries, doubts, instead of abandoning myself to the One who created me. I create my own shell around my heart, thinking that He calls me to a life of sacrifice... and He does. But His rewards are so much better than what I think is good for me. Everything that He does for me is for my own good.
And I want to pursue with everything in me that God who created me for His joy, who laughs with me, who longs for me to meet with Him in the morning and yet doesn't need me in the slightest, but still pursues me passionately, who calls me to follow His lead in the complicated, twirling, amazing dance of life. And He promises that I will find Him.... so much more than an accessory.
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